001. i miss somebody right now.
    002. i watch more tv than i used to.
    003. i love olives.
    004. i love sleeping.
    005. i own lots of books.
    006. i wear glasses or contact lenses.
    007. i love to play video games.
    008. i’ve watched porn movies.
    010. i have been in a threesome.
    011. i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
    012. i believe honesty is the best policy.
    013. i have acne free skin. 
    014. i like and respect al sharpton.
    015. i curse frequently.
    016. i’ve changed a lot mentally over the last year.
    017. i have a hobby.
    018. i’ve been told i have a nice butt.
    019. i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
    020. i’m really, really smart.
    021. i’ve never broken anyone else’s bones.
    022. i have a secret that i am ashamed to reveal.
    023. i love rain.
    024. i’m paranoid at times.
025. i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
    026. i need money right now.
027. i love sushi.
    028. i talk really, really fast sometimes.
    029. i have fresh breath in the morning.
    030. i have semi-long hair.
    032. i have at least one brother and/or sister.
    033. i was born in a country outside of the u.s.
    034. i shave my legs.
    035. i have a twin.
    037. i couldn’t survive without caller i.d.
    038. i like the way that i look.
    039. i have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
    041. i am usually pessimistic.
    042. i have mood swings.
    043. i think prostitution should be legalized.
    044. i think britney spears is pretty.

045. i have cheated on a significant other.
    046. i have a hidden talent.
    047. i’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
    048. i think that i’m popular.
    049. i am currently single.
    050. i have kissed someone of the same sex.
    051. i enjoy talking on the phone.
    052. i practically live in sweatpants or pj pants.
    053. i love to shop.
    054. i would rather shop than eat.
    055. i would classify myself as ghetto.
    056. i’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
    057. i’m obsessed with my blog!
    058. i don’t hate anyone.
    059. i’m a pretty good dancer.
    060. i’m a horrible dancer.
    061. i’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. 
    062. i have a cell phone.
    063. i watch much music on a daily basis.
    064. i cry myself to sleep.
    065. i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
    067. i have never been in a real relationship before.
    068. i’ve rejected someone before.
    069. i currently have a crush on someone.
    070. i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
    071. i want to have children in the future. 
    072. i have changed a diaper before.
    073. i’ve had the cops called on me before.
    074. i bite my nails.
    075. i am a member of the tom green fan club.
    076. i’m not allergic to anything deadly.
    077. i have a lot to learn.
    078. i have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
    079. i plan on seeing ice cube’s newest “friday” movie.
    080. i am very shy around the opposite sex.
    081. i’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
    082. i have at least 5 away messages saved.
    083. i have tried alcohol before.
    084. i have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.
    085. i own the “south park” movie.
    087. when i was a kid i played “the birds and the bees” with a neighbor or chum.
    088. i enjoy country music.
    089. i love my best friend(s).
    090. i think that pizza hut has the best pizza.
    091. i watch soap operas whenever i can.
    092. i’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
    093. i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
    094. i love michael jackson, scandals and all.
    095. i know all the words to slick rick’s “children’s story”.
    096. halloween is awesome because you get free candy.- its awesome, not specifically for that reason
    097. i watch spongebob squarepants and i like it.
    098. i have flirted with a close friend’s ex.
    099. i’m happy as of this moment.
    100. i have gone scuba diving.
    101. i’ve had a crush on someone i’ve never met.
    102. i’ve kissed someone i knew i shouldn’t.
    103. i play a musical instrument.
    104. i strongly dislike math. - loathe
    105. i’m procrastinating on something right now.
    106. i own and use a library card.
    107. i fall in “lust” more than in “love”.
    108. cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
    109. i think the lord of the rings is one of the greatest things ever.
    110. i’m obsessed with the tv show “lost.”
    111. i am resentful that i have to grow up.
    112. i am an entirely different person around different people.
113. i think the world would be a better place if people just smiled and meant it more often.
    114. i think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
    115. i am suffering of a broken heart.
    116. i am a nerd.
    117. no matter where i am or who i’m with, i always seem to be lonely.
    118. i am left handed and proud of it.
    119. i don’t change who i am for someone else.
    120. my heart resides below my feet.
    121. i am a senior in high school.
    122. i enjoy smoothies.
    123. i have gastritis.
    124. i have nothing better to do with my time.
    125. i am listening to radiohead right now. 
    126. most people call me by my middle name.
    127. i once stole a music stand.
    128. pi confuses me.
    129. i love nascar!
    130. i own over 200 cds. - but I have 7000+ songs one my itunes
    131. i work 7 days a week.
    132. i have mono.
    132. i don’t have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. people tell me i have a horrible sense of humor.
    134. i’m only wearing underwear.
    135. i had more than one thanksgiving dinner this year.
    136. i’ve driven to a different state to see a band i liked.
    137. i am the most over analytical person i know.
    138. i believe in wasting time.
    139. i don’t listen to too much music.
    140. i have a shoe fetish.
    141. my favorite holiday isn’t christmas.
    142. i prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
    143. i love sex.
    144. i wanna go home.
    145. i don’t know what i would do without my friends.
    146. christmas threw up in my dorm room and i love it.
    147. friends is my favorite tv show.
    148. i’m hungry.
    149. i’m still angry about the nip/tuck season 2 finale cliffhanger.
    150. i’m a potterhead and proud of it!
    151. i noticed there are several numbers missing from this list, making this very much not the 151st entry.
    152. i lied about one of the items on this list.
    153. my siblings are my best friends.
    154. i believe cheese should be its own food group it is soooo good!
    155. i have a problem expressing things. 
    156. i have lost a parent.
    157. i am the most deprived person i know on the face of the planet.
    158. i have at least one test tomorrow that i am not prepared for yet.
    159. i love slim jims! even if they are really bad for you.
    160. i am sick and tired of school so i am not going.
    161. i love sundance.
    162. i do not watch television. 
    163. i love starbucks coffee drinks.
    164. i am living at least one lie right now.
    165. i love wearing skirts, even if its winter.
166. i’m a techie.
    167. i am writing this far, far too late/early.
    168. i’m a little LOT crazy.
    169. i like the smell of white tic tacs.
    170. i know at least one person in a “life or death” crises at this moment.
    171. i don’t associate myself with any political parties.
    172. i always know all the gossip at my school/workplace/whatever, and nobody ever suspects it.
    173. i have thought about suicide.
    175. i can be selfish.
    176. i’m so emo at times.
    177. i can solve a 3x3 rubik’s cube.
    178. i think the human race is evil & should be demolished.
    179. i cheated on a test before.
    180. i am a member of animemusicvideos.org.
    181. i’m sick of drama.
    182. i need a job

List 10 musical artists you like, in no specific order (do this before reading the questions below). Really, don’t read the questions below until you pick your ten artists!!!

01. Alkaline Trio

02. Alexisonfire

03. Morrissey

04. Queens Of The Stone Age

05. Weezer

06. AFI

07. Hot Water Music

08. Eagles Of Death Metal

09. The Lawrence Arms

10. Mastodon

What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
Strength Through Wounding

What is your favorite song of 8?
(I Used To Couldn’t Dance) Tight Pants

What is your favorite lyric of 5?

“you tryin to play cool like you just dont care but soon I’ll be playin in ya underwear. Im like a mage with a magic spell, ya come like a dog when I ring your bell”

How many times have you seen 4 live?
None and it PISSES me off

What is your favorite song by 7?
“Remedy”

Is there any song by 3 that makes you sad?
Not really

What is your favorite song by 9?
“Are You There Margaret? It’s me, God.”

When did you first get into 2?
geez…like…9th grade? so like 6 years ago?

How did you get into 3?

well I’d listened to him before, and The Smiths too, but my girlfriend really got me into him

What is your favorite song by 4?
“Tangled Up In Plaid”

How many times have you seen 9 live?
Never…and it PISSES me off!

Is there a song by 8 that makes you sad?
Not at all!

What is your favorite song of 1?
“Queen of Pain”

How did you become a fan of 10?
Saw them play on MTV New Years one year…they’re badass

i hate feeling like i have to…bow down to certain people’s opinions or annoyances. i’m a very independent and opinionated person. i curse frequently. i smoke cigarettes. i drink. i often enjoy vulgarity. i’m not very fond of religion. i fight, spit, yell, and start shit. recently i was riding to someone’s house with a friend of mine, and on the ride to said person’s house i was given a list of things i couldn’t say because said person didn’t like certain things. “dont curse too much, dont refer to women as ‘bitches,’ etc.” i realize i’m coming into someone else’s house and it is only right to abide by their rules, but just because i curse doesn’t make me a bad person. i’m not saying i’m a dick or that i just don’t give a fuck about anyone or anything; i always try and make a good first impression, but what i’m trying to say is i am me and if you don’t like it…i’m sorry.

i’ve always loved the excuse “they’re religious.” if you’re religious, that’s fine. i respect everyone’s beliefs as long as you don’t try and force it upon me. but i’m not going to sit there and bash you beliefs, so as long as i’m not doing anything like that, what does your religion have anything to do with what i do. i love “dont curse around them, they’re religious.” haha. where in the bible does it say anything about cursing? those who hold their religion as a priority in life, often try and make you feel like they’re better than you or more important than you, simply because of what or who they believe in. but its funny because while you’re basically telling me i’m stupid for not belonging to a religion…you go to church every sunday and you sing songs, pray, and bow down to someone you can’t even be sure exists. at least everything i believe in is tangible. now who looks stupid?

i also love people who talk shit on the internet. it seems like facebook has become a stage for every idiot to have an opinion and every other idiot to comment on it with an equally stupid opinion. this often sparks debates, which often raises tensions, which leads to shit talking. there have been several occasions where people have gotten angry at me and told me “you’re lucky i dont beat the fuck out of you.” well what’s gonna happen when i run into you one day out in public. you better believe im gonna expect you to back your shit up. as the old saying goes “talking shit on the internet is like being in the special olympics; even if you win, you’re still retarded.”

i’m not trying to say i’m better than anyone, or that anyone should make the effort to live and think the way i do. i’m just saying that i’m doing what i see fit and what i think works best for me. there are a handfull of people that i actually give a fuck about and if i talk to you in an actual conversation, you’re one of them. everything else…i could give a fuck.

f u c k  y o u

you have killed 3,017 people and injured over 6,200 more. you planted explosives in the twin towers to cause them to collapse, you worked with osama bin laden to come up with this plan and he provided you with 19 sick fucks to get the job done, you let them slip through security, you lied about the pentagon, you had your people go collect all 80+ videos showing the attack on the pentagon while it happend to hide the fact that there was no plane involved, i wonder where that plane that crashed in shanksville, pa was going, you sent our brave fire fighters and police officers and ems into ground zero before it was safe just to breath in toxic chemicals such as asbestos and mercury and barium, letting our children go back to school near ground zero to inhale the same chemicals, you hired government agencies to “investigate” all of this but had them keep their mouths shut. all things just mentioned doesnt even scratch the surface of the horrible things you did.

today marks 8 years since the horrible tragedy…is it getting to you yet? does it bother you that you were simply a puppet during your whole administration? and your equally sick, liver-spotted father was the one holding the strings? he’s just pissed off becaused he failed to get his man in operation: desert storm and he used you to finish the job. but you didnt have any justification to enter iraq…so what would give you justification? an attack on our soil? right. but you cant sit around and hope someone attacks us. your clock was ticking. so you hired people to do it. are you happy? you got saddam. but you’ve dug us in such a fucked up hole over there in that waste of a country that even though you arent the president anymore (thank fuck) we still cant get out. you’ve, in this realm, caused the death over over 4,000 american soldiers.

if you werent behind the attacks, where is osama? we’ve gotten loads of other key players in the list of “bad guys,” we dug saddam out of a hole in the ground in bum-fuck-nowhere and had him hanged, but what makes bin laden such an elusive little fucker? is it because he worked for you and you promised him immunity? didnt your father used to stay with the bin laden family whenever he visited the middle east? i believe he did. what’s funny is, osama didnt even admit to the attacks. even on his f.b.i. wanted poster doesnt list the attacks under what he’s wanted for.

you’re a dumb fucking cowboy. all i can hope for you is that finally, the guilt eats away at you until you finally pick up a pistol, put it in your mouth, and pull the fucking trigger. but since i seriously doubt you wont do that seeing as the fact that you have no fucking soul, i hope you burn and rot in the deepest pits of hell along with your father and everyone else that was involved in your plan.

sincerely,

i hope you die.

im starting to get sick of this music scene…certain aspects of it at least. im sick of seeing bands like 3oh3 and the white tie affair get up on stage with their auto tuners and playing a show to all the 16 year old girls. im happy to see bands like bayside and bad religion and bouncing souls and nofx play real music though.

i can understand why some people grow out of certain music. i had never heard punk rock before until my older cousin gave me a mix cd from some cd’s she was getting rid of. the track listing goes as follows:

1. “repeater” by fugazi

2. “asprin free” by a.f.i.

3. “straight edge” by minor threat

4. “the ballad of johnny x” by the bouncing souls

5. “underground network” by anti-flag

6. “latch key kids” by bad religion

7. “banned in d.c.” by bad brains

8. “caps and bottles” by dropkick murphys

9. “scene report” by h2o

10. “20 eyes” by the misfits

11. “master race in outer space” by the vandals

12. “face value” by the suicide machines

good cd right? i couldnt understand why she was getting rid of it. but now that im older, i see it all the time. some of the people who even got me into certain bands are posting facebook status updates that say “hard music sucks now.”

fuck you.

i mean, listen to what you want but i just dont understand how you can switch like that. cant you like hard and softer music at once? im just sick of everywhere i turn, whether it be the radio or the tv or the internet…its always the same. lady gaga! 3oh3! ect. only a few bands out there actually make it real anymore. that’s why im going to see bayside and the bouncing souls in north carolina soon. im down to make the trip for that. i have no problem. lets just keep our fingers crossed and hope this is all just a phase.

it’s strange to think of myself as being in my twenties. i have dreams, aspirations, goals, etc. some larger than others, some which will sadly never be met, but i’ve come to terms with that. but while i have all of these dreams, farfetched or otherwise, i’m still not sure what i want out of life. do i ever think of where i’d be if i’d have stayed in school? of course. am i excited about my new course of action? definitely. it’s very easy sometimes to look back on decisons you’ve made and wonder where you’d be if you had decided differently. am i afraid of what life has in store for me? not afraid, more…nervous that anything. will i get married? i always planned to. will i have children? i always planned to. but i also planned to go to college straight out of high school and finish with a degree in…something…but that plan didnt work out. so who knows about children running behind pickett fences while the wife and i sit happily on the porch.

i can be sure of a few things. music will always be everything to me. i will always be myself. i will always believe in love, friends, and family. everything else is subject to change.

i’m a young man. i have many, many things ahead of me. over the years i have learned that life is one big suprise. you can plan as much as you want, but there’s nothing to say that anything will go as planned. i’m going to enjoy life and make decisons as i see fit for myself. at this point in life, i’m more important to me than anyone right now. so sorry in advance to any feelings i hurt or bonds i break as i go along.